today. i realised what pisses me off most.
it's not the waiting around having nothing to do during pracs.
well it's expected what. combined pracs always like that one.
but it's how annoying people fool around during pracs.
you know it's okay if you fool around once in awhile.
like say for a 4 hour prac you laugh and do silly things for a total of half an hour.
but no it's not okay when you've got no idea what's happening,
you don't know half the dance,
have no idea who your partner is,
yeah after practising for a few weeks already,
and you still fool around for the entire 4 hours of prac.
like wth.

i used to think my cca was bad enough.
i never thought any other dancers would be worse.
today i realised that really i'm actually quite proud of my cca and my cca mates.
no matter how much they enjoy having fun, when it's nearing performances they'd take pracs really seriously. although they always damn last minute.
but the other people are really 10x worse in terms of self discipline and stuff like that.
gold with honours. hah.
我瞧不起他们.
and i thought that women was a bit 过分 when i first heard she mentioned the "gold with honours" thing. but no now i agree. really.

i wonder why people dance.
when they don't actually give a damn bout dance at all.

before today.
i was just pissed off by how they manage this whole item.
(although really i can see that they're working really hard to try to put this together. and i can understand. just that i get pissed off quite easily. yarh)
but the behaviour of the people there today arh 我真的受不了.
i tell you if it was my cca i would've shouted at them long ago.
but this now 不关我的事. so i decided i should stay out of it.
let them be. they screw up the item not my fault also what.
the item ics to be blamed.
我做好该做的就是了.

yeah no matter how pissed off i get with the choreographers/ics.
(ponning pracs is one thing. =x
but i make sure i know my stuff.
and if i don't i'll prac till i get it there and then. yarh.)
when i'm at pracs,
i still pay attention when they say stuff.
i still follow their instructions, get into place/get ready and stuff like that.
basic respect can.

i know it's not nice (and i shouldn't) to pon pracs, but why i pon pracs,
is cos they don't actually do anything most of the time.
like 4 hour prac sometimes cover 2 eights only. -.-
and the rest of the time they leave us there sitting around.
and like today we practically didn't do anything. yarh.
prac supposed to start at 5.
we only started at like 7? wth right.


maybe you can say that it's just that i expect a lot.
from myself and from others.

but this. is really TOO much.
WAY over.


i can't wait for this entire thing to end.
it's gonna be the first and last time i'm tolerting something like this.
serious.


anyway.
random chest pains again. -.-