it happened again -.-
i think it was the most serious one so far.
but not too bad larh.
first/second time this year only.
i think.
and thanks to my classmates.
and especially those few =)
i wonder how i used to handle this alone.
i'm sure it never used to be this bad lorh.
anyway. yarh.
they kept telling me to go home.
and i was feeling damn sleepy
so i did.
and i was home early. =D
and i did nothing. -.-



自我检讨.
everyone knows that.
supposedly everyone should be applying it.
but sadly few people are.
then i wonder if it's just that people have little memory space for their own words and actions.
they remember things that happen.
but they don't remember things they themselves say/do.
they blame everyone else.
placing little or no fault on themselves.

not many people realise.
that really,
what people dislike about that someone else is usually what they dislike most about themselves.
and i think it's so true.
yarh everyone knows that too but most people don't see how it's true.
i guess until people 懂得自我检讨, will they see the value of that.
that's how people become better persons.
that's how people grow up and move on.

that's most probably why i can't communicate with people.
that's most probably why no one's actually able to get what i'm saying.
and when i say that
i mean no one's comprehension is actually anywhere near what i'm trying to convey.
even after saying a lot.
and repeating myself.
everytime.

and i really wonder if what i say is actually that difficult to comprehend.
maybe people think too much into it.
into something that has already been thought about.
then it just links them back.
not to where i'm coming from but to somewhere far off.


it never changed.
since about two years ago.
and i was right.