why i created this blog?
cos i feel like posting more stuff. updating more often i guess.
and i don't wanna spam people's multiply inbox. so yea.
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and random stuff:

星光4 有不少好声音哦. 还蛮值得期待的. =)

promos are in a week's time.
well at least i've started and that's good.
though i kind of haven't done anything this weekend.

performance at ntu on thursday.
and heats next week.
not anywhere near prepared yet though.
but i can't really be bothered anymore.
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and some stuff i've been thinking bout:

everytime i see little kids/babies. i smile. well maybe not all of them but most.

and i think about how people always say. the older you grow, the more stuff you experience and the more knowledge you gain. you realise the knowledge you have becomes less and less.

i don't think that's true though. maybe cos i'm not quite human but yarh.

when you're a little kid you can't wait to grow up. can't wait to experience life as it is. the complicated thing which brings many pleasant surprises. and all the other maybe not so good experiences which is really what makes you grow. become a more knowledgeable person or rather makes you more a person.

then you grow up and realise that there's really nothing much to life. it's not actually as complicated as you think it would be. not as exciting and enriching as it seemed. and it's really just that simple. so simple that you wish you never had to grow up. so you could keep fantasizing about how life is and would be.

yeah.


recently i've been thinking if i really like dance as much as i think i do. if it really is that much a part of me as i thought it was. and i guess i've concluded that it's not. if i'd never gone there, never met them. there'd be a whole lot of difference.

and i guess it's still the whole being on stage thing that confused me. it's not dance that i can't live without. it's the stage that's my dream.

i realised dance isn't able to help me express. it's just able to change my mood, makes me happy. really happy sometimes. and that's bout it.


and i sing. whatever i'm feeling. and i there's this special feeling. maybe i'm just feeling me. and i realised that's expressing. yarh.


when i was in pop course, i was sian of popping.
now when i'm in lock course, i'm sian of locking. and i'm serious.

i think i'm kind of getting it. dancing and not just popping. dancing and not just house-ing. i guess it's just that i got 'dancing and not just locking' first and so i thought i liked locking more.
now the interest's at the same level again. back to poplockhouser.
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i really should sing more. but i'm afraid i'd start singing and can't stop.
yeah i should just study first and not think so much.

i'll just
have dinner first. bye.
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quite amazing how i blogged about so much in so much a shorter time.
maybe it's just not bothering bout anyone. which is well good for now.